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Wassup ?



i doubt our love nw .i feel like u've changed for the worst . whr is the caring, loving and patient u ? i can't seem to find any of tht in u nw . U'VE CHANGED and u're denying it .
idk why u've changed . guess u're influenced by tht jerk or u're just sick and tired of me . u don't even bother to console me whn i'm utterly upset with u . well, mayb for a while but u'll give up shortly aft tht . why ? cos i'm stubborn ? yea i am and u shld have known me well frm the strt . honestly, i feel like i've endured and forgiven u too much till u're stepping on my head nw . wht's with all this shit ? i don't wanna be played with . i'm sick and tired of so .

u've broken UR promise once agn ytd . when u wished me happy birthday on my day, i broke down instantly . my only wish which was to celebrate my day with u have long been crashed by . and thr u were consoling me with all ur heart and making a promise to me tht u'll meet me on the 11th . mayb i was dumb to have high hopes tht u'll fulfill ur promise or mayb i was hypnotised by ur sweet nthgs .
u told me on midnight itself tht u're unable to lend the money frm ur friend and u're rwally penniless. why must it be tht late ? i don't understand . evrything is just like a dream which will nvr happen . i'm utterly disappointed cos u've disappoint me TWICE with ur broken promises . were promises meant to be broken in ur eyes ?
u tried ur best to console me agn bt i insisted tht i've finally hated u nw . i told u tht i don't want u to contact or bother abt me anymore . guess u were hurt by wht i said till u broke down ,saying u don't ever wanna let me go . deep in my heart , i was touched by it bt still , my disappointment in u overwhelmed me . i hung up my phone , saying tht i don't want anything to do with u anymore . last i heard was tht u'll ensure tht i'm still urs . i assume tht it's over btwn us.

idk wht do u want frm me . seriously .i've been searching for the answer and pray to Him tht i'll finally get to understand wht's goin on between us . i love you too much it shows all my emotions go out of control. i posted on my status: where were u when i needed u the most ? . tht jerk replied saying : he's gonna die cos of ur damn promise to him.
at tht moment , i panicked . i don't ever wanna lose u though i'm hurt with wht u've done to me. i called u up . u sounded really normal . did u easily forgot wht has hppened the day before or u can't be bothered with me anymore ? i decided to calm myself down and pretend tht nthg has happened ytd . tht jerk angered me while i was otp with u and thr goes my mood down the drain . i kept quiet cos of tht as i was utterly mad with him. i went on to vent my anger out . u were fed up with me nagging agn and wanna put dwon the phone . why the hell are u defending tht jerk ? u told me u'll call me agn tonight . do u think i'll easily forget abt this huh ? do you ?

on the other hand , mayb i'm too possesive of u . mayb i'm just too afraid of losing u till i heat up an argument at the smallest things tht happened and push all the blame on u .u have once told me tht my mindset is still nt matured yet as i still yea fight over the littlelest things . frm one point , i agree with u bt frm the other point i don't . i nag cos i love you , i fight cos i love you. 0r was i just goin overboard with my 'cos i love you' . guess i need a love doctor . it's been 2 mths plus nw tht i've last met u . do u even make the effort to meet me ? u told me tht u really2 miss me bt were u willing to go all out to prove wht u've said ?what are words if u really don't mean them but u say them ?

as for nw , i leave evrything to fate . maybe we were nt even fated to be together . mayb this is a test of how strong our love is .
for what i knw , my feelings for m=u won't ever fade no matter wht happens. i'll love you thru thick and thin .

how do u define love ?



Heylowwww !

My blog's rotting & i'm freakingg bored nw . Chucked my DnT aside whn i actually planned to do it since 1130 -.-
Let's summarise the events tht had happened in my life so far .

Studies : OMGAWD . I'm deproving a lot i tell u . Serious shit . The worst nightmare wad the fact tht i failed my MT for the first time in my life -.- ishhh . Mcm gini pgl diri bdk mlayu ? Memalukan pls . (ievenforgedmymom'ssignaturewhnaskedtosignonthepaper) shh :/ Told friends & lovee abt it . Friends were utterly shocked upon hearing . Nora said tht mayb i feel
demoralised whn i got into band 2 & this may be a factor tht affects my failure . Somehow, i have to agree with her . Lovee was pratically ranting & gave me a lecture. Well , i shldn't have told him abt it cos nw he made me made a promise to at least get an A for the upcoming paper -.- . Haishh .
Another nightmare is tht i failed my Chem .
Majorly cos of my carelessness in almost every pg of the papers -.- how silly cn i gt ?
Got lectured by Mr sharin & he slipped his tongue whn he called me stupidd . I swear i was gonna cry at tht moment . I'll have to work extra hard this time round . Hmm . Rest of the subjects were edible to me . Still dk whthr i made it thru for my eng overall.
I'M FREAKING STRESSED UP WITH MY DNT . Someone pls save me frm this suffocation pls .

CCA: cn i opt myself out frm syf pls ? The practises r eating up a lot of my time. I nidda break . 1 more mth baybeh & i'm outta all this shit . Thr's a camp coming up this march holidays . Savemesaveme! Omgawdd . Just 1 day aft march hols commence, da kene gy skola alek -.-

Personal life ; staying strong with lovee . Alhamdullilah(: Though thr r times whn i give up on u cos i can't take the pain tht u're causing & demand a breakup, u still insists on being with me . Pardon me for being a bd gf to u . I admit tht i'm bull-headed(heyy,i'm a Taurus lovee ,whatcha expect ? (: ) & unreasonable. It's always the matter of fact tht my overwhelming jealousy kills our r/s . Still , u stayed on to me . Thanks a lot lovee . Iloveyouhh. Tmrw marks our 5th alr & thr's a bloody SS seminar which ends arnd 7 -.- menyibokk je . My boobsday comin & u owe me a date
kayy lovee . (: i just hope tht u're able to be here & celebrate with me . If nt , i swear i'll lock upself up in my room. :'c

0thers : - planning to go to flea market with Bird & others .
- looking forward to IT showw .
- I WANNA GO SHOPPING !!!!!

P.S; iwantababy(ugetmypointlovee?)



Heyy . Whaddup ? Okayy . I'm freaking bored nw .
Was otp with lovee earlier on & thn TOOT . wtf ? Urghh . Imissyouhh la lovee & oh yea, i can't sleep .. till u're nxt to me . Okayy , stoppit . Speaking of which, he forced me to tug in early today cos i've been sleeping @6am evryday . Hehheh . Wadever . Sampai jdi gado pakse -.-
Hmm . Today is alr Tue right ? So yea , 3 more days baybeh . Ku tetapkan menunggumu ~ .
Had practice in the aft just nw & it was like _|_ . Baru msk da mcm prompan giler ane pekik sini pekik saner . Urghh . Worst, i woke up in the morning & flooded the toilet bowwll . Asshole was damn painful till like NOW . Adoiii . So, was excused from singing cos evrytime i sing out, i feel like my shit was on the verge of coming out . Ewwwww . Gross plss . Why am i talking abt shit ? FUCKING SHIT ! Hehheh . Aft practice , made my way with Bastard & mei yee . Ohh yea , H A P P Y 16th B Oo B S D A Y Bastard ! Stay sweet & cheerful always aye . Iloveyouhh ! Remember tht ! (;
Okayy . Bck to the topic . Made our way to cwp . Buzzed mom bt they were still in JB . End up waiting for close to 3hrs for my dad to fetch me -.-
Took a nap in the car thn woke up with a sudden . I forgot to bring my nokia phone . Damn . Time chck was arnd 7plus & i knw lovee txted me by thn . Send siblings off to l auntie's hse & fetch bibik . Took a nap againn . I swear my asshole was killin me kayy . Mom wanna go eat dinner -.- haiyooo . 8plus by thnn . Was eating halfway when my iphone buzzed . It was frm lovee . Tht made me smile & blushed tht i ALMOST pick up the call . OMG . i was sitting in FRONT of my PARENTS for gdness
sake ! Phewww . Close one . Gobbled dwn my food & went towards toilet . Called lovee & told him abt my phone . He was worried sick . Awwww . OHYA, he asked/scolded me abt my voice . He thought i was being fcked or smthg . Yeahh , like real la lovee . So badd of u . Still cn laugh at me aft tht -.- headed bck & replied lovee as soon as i rched . Yeapp, took my day off . Tmrw goin see doc , ddy said . Think i kena food poisoning or smthg .
Till here

P.S; u owe me 5 gdnight XXX ^^



HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII (:

Hehheh . I miss my bloggy .
Time chck : 4:20 am . O M G . i'm freaking boredd kayy . Just finished work . Talking abt tht, i've been goin thru workin life for 3 mths nw . & i FREAKING haven't get my 2 mths payy . PAPA , don't make me ask for 3 mths payy ahhh . FASTER . I wanna go shoppin before sch reopens ! (looks at calendar) :'c . Okehh stfu . Back to the topicc . Hmm . Work . Work ? Work is stressful lah kayy . The only thing tht drives me is $$$ . nyehehheh . I'm nt money-faced kayy plss . I'm just a despo/beggar(?) who wants $$$ to go shopping only . Hmm

I WANT A BABY LAH LOVEEE .
Okayy foine . Straight to the point . I NK KHAWEN. I'm like freaking sick of studyin alr . Otak da nk mamposs . The best part is when he said "lagy 10 tahun la dear . Sabar kayy ." O M G . So old alr can? He'll be 32 by thn . 32 okayy ! Da digit baru . :c I wanna marry at an early age . Hmm, mayb 20-23 ? Come on la . My mom got married at the age of 19 okehh
. So, tk sala ikot2 makk kann ? Hehheh . I freakinggg want a babyyyy . I was so hysterical just nw tht i took the watermelon my dad bought , stuffed in outside my stomach & walked arnd with it . He even scare me by sayin tht soon i'll be crazyy . As in really the crazy , da hilang akal nye orng all cos of baby. Wth ? U're so badd okehh . ihateyouhh . Wadever .. & damn it kayy . U have to leave me again on sun till nxt fri . Imgonnamissufuckingmuchasshole. FCUK U kayy . Always had to leave me ;'c

I MISS SCH . NONONONO . I MISS MY KWN2 ONLY . :'c i miss callin ppl BITCH & hurling "FUCKING SHIT!" randomlyy . & i haven't even started on ny hw . Nk mampos ni bdk . Nanti uat LAST MIN, pagi3 bute before skola reopens . Bgs ah prangai .

Time chck: 4:45am *yawnsss* gdniteee (:
Will update soon. No promises ;/

P.S: AIshiteru myAssholeguyy <3



OMG . Look at the date now . Time flies ... Really2 flies . 27 more days to strt of CA2 & 4 more months to go till end of yr . Gosh ..
So , first day of sch was suckish . Especially the new timetable . I hate weds as always .. Part of it Is coz of mass run bt other thn tht , weds' lessons are all DOUBLE periods except for last period MT . How can I simply nt be tired when aft sch, is another 3 hrs straight of cca .. This is like too much for me .. Worst , fri is practice for 4 hrs straight .. Like Wth ? & we're the only cca thr . Fck .. Okayy , enough said of my rantings ..

So, on thurs had D&t .. Kumar announced the students going for Japan . I'm one out of 4 of them ^.^ bt still , have to go through another round of interview this coming wk .. Tues if i'm nt wrong .. Zzzz .. Anw, had new chem teachers .. Mr shahrin(?) & ms diana .. don't really like tht Mr bullet train coz yea .. As the name suggest, he talks like one . So, how do u expect me to absorb wht he's talkin abt ? Tell me .. Guess I've to study on my own again then . Worst , I don't like my new tutor .. Sorry to say bt it's a fact tht he's teaching himself & nt me .. Gosh .. can die like this . I can't survive
with a 'bisu' tutor .. Ohno .. Having tuition in another 2 hrs time :0

Hw for the weekend; eng compre ONLY . ^.^ Hahha .. I likeyyy .. Mon no sch somemore .. Thought of going shopping on mon bt see how first ..

Okayy .. Enough said of my post .. Till here .

P.S: brazil lose ! I so shad , I teared :'c
following Bastard's footsteps (:



Heyyy ..
jyeah . I'm updating my blog now since a lot of ppl are complaining tht they get bored seeing my sore eyes pictures -_- . Anw, I'm nt updating for the sake of them bt simply because I miss my blog .. Hahha .. Yea right ..
Before tht , i'm still fcking pissed off with my hp . I can't upload pics frm it to blogger .Urghhh . & I'm lazy to on the com :/


Okayy .. Let's see.
11th June- Aesthetic night .
Was still sick from bad flu & cough bt yet still dragged myself to go for the performance . Hahha . Semangat ? Nt .. I went thr just to see someone . Shhhh .
I think our performance went out well ? Idk .
So, finish arnd 10 plus .. Planning to go home with Bastard bt it didn't turn out as planned .
:c Nvm .. In the end, Amalina's uncle(?) agreed to send me home . Thanks much (:


14th-18th June-AEM course @ SP
The first day was practically boring . bt as the days passed , I enjoyed those moments . Especially with iqaaah . it's been like donkey years since I really spent time with her . When I mean really , it's when I somehow get 'connected' to her . Errr.. get what I mean ? the last day was unforgettable . The lecturer end off the course by saying...
"i hope U've enjoyed yr 5 wks course ..... "
Us- "uh? 5 days only wht *starts laughing*
LOL ! Bt seriously , I prefer goin for this course if I continues for 5 wks . Yeah .. Before I forget, went to marina barrage with Iqah , shawn & nizam . We were lost instead . Hahha . Yeah ... In a small island called Sg -_- walk here.. Walk there .. In the end, still couldn't find & gave up . Head home bt u knw what ,We saw the marina barrage across the dk what river/sea -.- however, still enjoyed being lost though . Very much .. There was entertainment to keep me entertained so yeah .. Anw, I loveeeeeee the CASHINO ! So silau can ?


22-23th June- Choir camp
1st day was super tiring . Bt thank god they cooperate . Well, I shld say once in a while . There was one part when I asked them to keep quiet for Idk how many times & listen to me bt they ignored. So, I was kinda pissed off . When I was in tht state then they really listened to me . Seriously , I hate to be like tht bt it leaves me no choice, I have to do it . Nevertheless , I'll do my best to help this choir progess in every aspect in terms of team spirit & discipline . Yeah . Tht's the 2 most important aspects to get the ball rolling .
Amazingly , I slept soundly during the night despite the noise . Blahh3 ... End of camp . Head home & slept asleep as soon as I lie down on bed . Slept for 2 hrs tough . Still feel tired when I woke up .

& here I am blogging due to boredom . Anw, 5 more days to sch reopens .. :/ I don't feel like this 1 mth of holiday is really a holiday . In
fact , it's a torturing 'holiday' for me . With only a few perfect days of rest before another torturing stuffs/day starts . Sucks much . Oh ya, i'm left with D&T for my hw . Vodcast is being stretched till 2nd wk of sch by ms L . Thank god . PE project still left hanging .

Tht's all for my updated post . Yeah ! I did it (: Hahha -_-' tag aye . Much appreciated . Thanks

P.S: will u ?

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