u got me hypnotised..
9/07/2009
herlow there..
Errr.. Today marks the 3rd day of sch holiday n im enjoying it much with my new company by my side.. Shhhhh..
Got back report bk on fri n i swear that it suckzzz but im quite satisfied that i improved by 5 positions ahead.. Yeaaaah..! Showed my dad my results n surprisingly, he wasn't mad at me when i didn't managed to clinch the top ten position.. Cool or whutt ? he was glad that i achieved the most number of distinctions for all these years.. (: but then, he gave me a short
syarahan.. Nt so uh.. He advised me to focus on my maths, sci n eng coz he said these subjects are impt.. I was shocked for a reason.. Can't tell coz later u thought that im underestimating.. :X im so happy that my dad understands how hard it is for me to clinch the top ten position now.. (: i love u very damn much dear papa ! <3 and, thankz noraaa n iqaaah for those words bck then when i panicked seeing my results, wondering how would my dad react..ur predicitons turn out to be right aye.. <3 blahblahblah.. So much for that alr..
been bz lately helping my aunt to make her kuihs.. N sorry noraaa coz i can't go out to study with u at lib.. Bz uh aye.. (: n speaking of study, damn it..! I haven't really start doin my hw.. Wah die liao.. I oni finished 3/4 of sci n the reSt i haven't even touch ! Best or whutt.. Omg.. Wake up shabella ! U have more than 1 wake-up call alr n u nid to do smthg bout it..! No more slacking/dreaming/lepak-ing n wadsoever.. Studystudystudy,revisereviserevise n hmwkhmwkhmwk!!!!! Get this thing right into yr head laaar ! Less than a mth to EOY alr.. N im nt letting myself land into that bloody class.. NEVER !! =.= enough of those rantings..
P.S; i dunnoe whether i shld wait for u any longer now.. They said; "he dosen't accept the way u are,shabella" "juz forget bout him n find another one.." shld i heed their advices??? I reali dunnoe.. I wish i could have someone who deeply understands how i feel.. I couldn't find any of that kind though some tried to.. And, find another one ???!!!! i have to say that im tired of all this sweet nothings alr.. I won't find another till Allah meets me with my soulmate..My true love.. Now is reali nt the time.. Im too young to think of this issue called love now ! I'll juz get myself more sins being with a bf.. I shld stop.. STOP ! Urghhh.. All i could do is to pray to Allah for guidance in my life.. But then, i still love u.. n i dunnoe whether this feeling will do any good at the end of my wait.. What should i do ?
P.S.S; im keeping my mouth shut abt smthg.. I guess i won't be telling anyone.. Yeaaah.. I shouldn't n i would never leak anything abt this from my mouth..
